This is a short story of how Perfect things in life never remain perfect. Because this world cannot witness perfect things, perfect situations, perfect people..perfect love. Because to them, ‘perfection’ doesn’t exist. It’s just a word in the dictionary which is impossible to subsist.
But to me..they were perfect. See, the ‘perfection’ depends on a person’s perception. Maybe to you they weren’t; to others they were just another couple..but to me.. they were a perfect couple! A couple who were meant to be together, but they met in not a perfect situation as they call it. Well, it hurts a lot to see that they both are not together anymore, but I am sure, the love they shared will be with them all their life through. Coz I don’t think so they will ever be able to forget what they had between them. Let’s say it is simply difficult to forget your dream love!
I had seen them. And all the while I used to think.. she is a lucky girl! But then I did find out that so was he.. But he truly, madly, deeply loved her!
A short tale.
The story begins when Ciara joined a new organization and Steve was there since sometime. He was little upset with life with nothing to look forward to and no spice in life. So here enters Ciara. And his eyes were just fixated on her (in his words). She never bothered to look. But then she could feel his eyes on her..and eventually she did start to take a notice of him. It became a routine. She got a reason to get up every morning and dress up. He got a reason to come to office and take coffee breaks. They looked, noticed but never acknowledged. Never. No initiatives were taken. Her best friend kept on telling her that maybe he is too shy. That she should start a conversation. But she did not. After 7 months she took her first initiative (will not mention the details). But nothing happened. She took another after two months. Nothing again. She took the third. Still nothing. And then alcohol helped and she took one biiig step. He melted.
They started to talk, chat..and they realized how things were perfect. How they gelled. How they were made for each other. Then finally he asked her out on a date. As per what she told me..it wasn’t a lavish date.. no evening gowns, no candle light dinner, no beach. Plain simple beer date and a long drive. They instantly fell in love. Or no.. They held it back. For once they did not want to spoil it. Both of them had been with wrong people all along..and now they wanted to take it slow.
They shared their first hug..first kiss on their first date.. in the night.. Near a water body. With breeze making her long hair blow over his skin.
And well, they met. They met everyday. Be it coffee, ice cream, movie, drive, dining..they just met, talked, laughed, hugged, kissed, discussed, made love, explored more about each other.. and talked again.
But they never said those three magical words ever. Coz he wanted it to be perfect. The way he had always planned to propose his dream girl. And she was ready to wait. Coz she knew she was his. And he was the one.
And then they planned their perfect date (details to be kept private). Which did not happen because all of a sudden, the complications that they had been ignoring, just stood at their face.
And they realized..that they will not be able to take it forward. Their love was so perfect that this perfection might hurt people they are close to.
But then this wasn’t easy. They just couldn’t let go of each other. She told me she had lived her whole life in those 25 days. Her dream life. Though it was short lived but she loved it. And he knew, he will never be able to get a girl like her. He couldn’t lose her. But he just did. With two words, ‘I can’t!’..and her dreams were shattered. Their dreams were shattered.
It took him two weeks to say this after he realized the practicalities of life. Their love was so perfect that, time stood against them. Situation stood against them and they had to give in.
I spoke to her yesterday. She said, ‘I wish I could say that I still have hope. But you know, I am scared to have it. Tell me.. When one has already witnessed a perfect feeling..how can he/she settle for anything less than that..?’
I was stumped.
She continued,’ I never got to know how easy my life could be with him around, but I do know how difficult it is without him. We don’t talk anymore. We are not in touch. I hope he is happy. And I hope he has forgotten me. Coz I don’t want him to feel the pain I feel everyday. I wish I could shut him out of my mind.. But if I sleep, I end up dreaming him, if I listen to some songs, the lyrics remind me of him..If I read a book, I remember how he asked me about my collection and monthly expenditure on my novels..if I write.. I remember how he wanted to read my diary.. If I cooked.. I remembered how much he wanted me to cook for him..If I went for a walk, I remember the long walks that we had..’
And she started to cry.. (ten minutes). We were sitting on the bench where they sat and he mentioned that he has fallen for her.
She smiled and said.. ‘I can never stop loving him. I wish I could just get a hug from him. That’s it.!’..
She told me that she knows that the guy she loves doesn’t exist anymore. Coz he was crazy about her. He could never give up on her. Never. She knows it deep down that he will never come back for her.She knows that he is not the Steve she knew.. That her Steve doesn’t exist anymore. But then she also knows that he gave her everything she ever wanted.. and he did tell her to ‘hang in there’..
The story continues..
P.S.- I hope it continues .. just to end in another happily ever after. (I wish I wasn’t so influenced by Nicholas Sparks!.. I so much wanna believe that they will find out their ways to each other. Fingers crossed!:) )