Note 2:

He quietly envisages the next step.. The next preferred moment.
He hides his benevolent acts in his crackpot gestures.
He wants things to turn lighter, the moment he realises she might say something heavy.
He tries to hold her tight and also tries not to hold her long enough.

Note 1:

Even after so many years of different experiences, nothing brings me more peace than a cup of coffee, an awesome piece of lemon cake, a beautiful novel, a handmade paper diary and an ink pen!