Friday, November 26, 2010

She came... and left me wondering!

She came in my dream last night,
looking beautiful and at peace,
she told me not to worry, she is fine,
and that she is there and will always be mine.

She told me that she sees my pain,
and is helpless that can't wipe my tears,
she said she wants me to be happy,
and asked me to erase my fears.

I told her that I am scared,
I don't want to lose her memories from my heart,
I told her that I loved her and I missed her so much,
I asked her why was she so far away, didn't she miss me
Didn't she ever yearn for my touch?

She smiled in front of me, but I knew she was crying inside,
She asked me if I would do something for her?
I smiled and said,'You never have to ask this question love, just say?'
and gave a promise that it will be done.

She gave me a box, and asked me to destroy it
I wondered what it was, I wondered why;
I asked her and she replied, 'it will give you strength',
So trusting her I destroyed, burnt it and what was left were ashes,
Amazingly I felt light, I looked around and she stood there smiling,
She then said, 'You just destroyed your past and now you have nothing to lose..'
'I miss you more than you can imagine, it's cold here and I am alone'
'I miss holding your hand, I miss your warmth, I miss you being there'
'I miss everything about you, the more I miss, the more I do'
'But the thing I miss the most is your happiness'
'So start anew, let things go... tomorrow it will be a new day, for u and for me'
'I want to be the reason for your smile, not tears'
'I want to be your strength, not fear'

and she went.

I woke with a start.. and wondered who she was!?

As I never had a chance to love, nobody ever loved me!!


Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Message in a bottle

What am I to you?
You complete me, he replied.
It's not possible to stay away from someone so honest and beautiful,
Someone so pure at heart. I just wanna be close

The following is written by Nicholas Spark.

He was angry at her. For dying and leaving him alone.
He wrote, I have been lost, I don't have a compass.I was never lost before.
You were my true north. Forgive me for being so angry at you. Some mistakes have been made and I am waiting for God to take them back.

You came into my dream last night. Hugged me like a lover, rocked me like a child. All I remember from that dream is of you at peace. I woke up with that feeling and tried to keep it alive as long as I could.

I am sorry for so many things.I am sorry I never took better care of you so that you never spent one minute feeling cold or scared or sick. I am sorry I never tried harder to find the words that could tell what I was feeling. I am sorry I ever fought with you. I am sorry I didn't apologise more, I was too proud. Am sorry I didn't bring you more compliments at everything you wore and every way you fixed your hair. I am sorry I didn't hold on to you with so much strength that God couldn't pull you away.

Why is it so hard to confess your feelings sometimes. What are we afraid of? It's so easy to vent out the stuff you are feeling inside. It needs no courage, it needs no strength. All it needs is a heart...

This is to all those who just don't say it. Say it. Say whatever you want to. To all those whom you love. Express. It heals. It takes away all the pain. There is nothing called fear. It's only inside you. Don't let that someone special go away just because you didn't say. Give surprises to them Make them happy. Appreciate them. Compliment them. And believe me, you are doing a great favour to yourself.:)

Try it and let me know.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Beauty in imperfections...

Ever wondered how much beautiful everything is?
The sky, the sea; the you, the me,
The smile, the pain, the love, the fame,
The feel, the soul, the touch that heals.

The first walk of a child, his first scribble on a paper;
The first song he sings, the first poem he recites;
The first dish that your girl cooks when you know its not what it should have been,
The first hand made card from a person who never drew before,
The love that is left unsaid but is found deep in the core.

The times when he spills food every time he eats,
The moment when after warning you still do it all wrong,
The first cup of coffee, the second and the third,
The untidy hair, and the look so innocent,
The words said made me feel what they meant.

We grow up with lots of learnings, we grow up to learn more,
We grow up with experiences and grow up for more,
We grow up wanting to be perfect like no one else,
Like the one we think we want us to be, the one who knows how and when to lock the doors.

We do grow up, growing up each day, to learn more, to experience life,
We grow up, you grow up and I grow up too,
I am growing up to be the one I want to be, the perfect me,
But then I make mistakes, sometimes; am a human, with some imperfections,
Imperfections which you may find dumb,
But then I see beauty in some, not mine,
So maybe one day I'll be loved,
For the beauty you find in my imperfections.

Love you Papa and Mommy for loving me the way I am.