Sunday, July 11, 2010

its not a good feeling..

Jealousy- one of the definition which dictionary describes is, feeling angry or unhappy because sb you like or love is showing interest in sb else!!
I used to mock at this definition. In fact has made fun of it so many times that this ‘J’ word always brought a smile on my face even at a thought of it. I took this feeling as a joke till the time I myself experienced it.
Damn!! It hurt. Well it felt as if I had just drank a bottle of acid and it burnt all inside. It’s like a fire in there. It’s sick. This result into water coming from eyes which we human call tears. The tears do soothe some of the burning sensation but does not help for a long time.
Drinking water also fails. You simply feel like locking up yourself inside a room, with your thoughts, and away from all the social life. You feel like killing that person you are jealous from even though he/she might have not done any harm to you personally.
And if you are in this state for quiet sometime, it brings out the worst in you, the devil in you. I never knew I could be so possessive about an individual outside my family but love shows you everything.
Its been around a month now that I realised how jealous I was. Have done a lot to cure it. But the bits still remain. The feelings are felt sometimes but they stay for a very short duration.
Its only the love of your partner that can cure it to 100%. If he is successful in reviving that trust in you, your ‘J’ will vanish in the thin air..
I hope my day is nearby.. when I feel free to mock at this feeling again!


  1. reply by papa.. thanks a lot papa.. I love u..

    Its all absolultely true. The difference between an ordinary individual and a little more conscious, mature and wise person is " NOT TO BURN HIMSELF / HERSELF IN THIS FIRE CREATED BY 'J' BUT LAUGH IT OFF BY SELF-CONFIDENCE, COURAGE AND ALWAYS THINK - THERE IS SOMETHING BETTER IN STORE THAT MAA OR GOD HAS FOR ME". Why should I burn my energies, spoil peace of mind and loose out at every front of life because of feelings aroused by 'J'. LET IT GO. One will feel nice, light at heart and full of energies.

    What I have said is a little difficult thing but not impossible. Still if this seems difficult, one must have a shoulder to cry a bit and feel light. The world will go on - whether we like it or not. So why fall back and let others win the race? Think, ponder, keep HIM / HER always in our hearts and be confident. JEET APNI HI HOGI.


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